Greetings :) March 18 2010 - Well I have felt God's hand gently guiding me more this past month than ever before. I showed Mike last night everyone I had emailed about volunteering to go to Niger in November and December of last year. I sent out 34 individual emails, these did not include online requests or emails to missionary organizations. I had 62 rejection emails from November to December of 2009. Here is a brief catch up time line :) Later December of 2009 - I found out that SIM would not send me unless Mike was deployed...by that time, I was discouraged, depressed and feeling as if perhaps I should just give up. January 17th, 2010 - I laid all my anger, resentment and hurt out to God during a church altar call. After I got up from the altar, a Pastor confirmed that God was hearing my prayers. I didn't feel so helpless anymore. The next night at a 24/7 altar call God confirmed to me that he was preparing someone to receive me...but who? February 2, 2010 - Discov...
I have so many thoughts and feelings running through my mind right now. Do you know when you search and search to find your place in life? You never really fit in anywhere and then one day you find that place and you long to stay there? My place is Africa. I felt like I fit there. I felt like I belonged there. I felt accepted there. I went and did exactly what God told me, Niger - 9 months - June 17th - Alone.... it was heaven to know that is where I was suppose to be because I was walking in HIS will for my life and not my own. It is such a comfort and peaceful to know exactly what God has for you and to fulfill that calling he has on your life. Now I am waiting. Waiting on the one who called me to send me and my family full time. Waiting as patiently as I can. I think of the children, I think of their sweet smiles, I think of their sick eyes looking and pleading at me as if to say help me....and as I lay my hands on them to try to physically help them...in my heart I am praying with ...
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