November 2017

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Remember Stacey Remember...........


Every having the feeling of just trying to survive? No, well then you are above perfection. When we are going through the trials of this life is when God is striving us to become more like him and less like us. Each day is a learning day. Each trial is the chance to become shiner or duller in our afflictions. Each affliction is a chance see what we are trying made of and who is really in control of our life. We have the chance to learn something about ourselves that we didn't know existed. We have a chance to see just how far we can stretch our limits without breaking ourselves. And when we are stretched to our limits in when we can see just how much further we can go with God's help. Life isn't about just being happy for ourselves. Life is about showing others how much God is Lord of our life, how much we can love others despite their imperfections and how we can worship and love the Lord despite what we are given to deal with in this life. Pain, heartache, unforgiveness by others, anger, depression, inability to understand why, betrayal, and utterly feeling cold all over from the shock of losing someone who was so close to you. Life does NOT make sense. It never will to us. I can't begin to explain how a child can die a cruel death and a drug addict can walk away unharmed to continue down their vindictive cycle of hurting themselves and the ones who love them. I can't explain how the most precious man in the world can die of leukemia and not complain and even thank me his last night on earth. I don't understand how that one person has so much hate in their heart for their "horrible" life and destroy so many lives with that hate while that precious old man dies in his bed. I don't dare to try to explain the actions of others. I can't even explain the actions of myself. One day I am happy, one day I am angry, one day I am sad, and one day I may feel sorry for myself. Does that make me a bad person? No, life is NOT about being happy all the time. In this world people make others think if they aren't happy then they need to start living for themselves. This is a lie. Start living for Jesus and then you might experience true peace. Destroying your marriage to go be with someone else won't make you happy long term. The same problems in the 1st marriage will follow you to the 2nd relationship but even more now because now you have created a vicious cycle of pain for the other person in your attempt to make yourself happy. When can we start lifting up each other and stop tearing the other one down. When can we stop living for ourselves and live for God.





I surrender
I surrender
I wanna know You more
I wanna know You more

I surrender
I surrender
I wanna know You more
I wanna know You more

Like a rushing wind
Jesus breathe within
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me

Like a mighty storm
Stir within my soul
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me


Like a rushing wind
Jesus breathe within
Lord have Your way
Lord have Your way in me...



Short term, we can't. I can't expect the whole world to suddenly come to this realization. No, the world will blame the other person for their short comings and failures. So ask yourself what can I do to help this problem? That is the easiest answer but the hardest thing to do.....I can CHANGE me....what CHANGE me? Yes change yourself. Start living for God and not yourself. Start seeing things and people in the way Jesus wants us too. Life is short, Heaven or hell is a reality. I may live 40, 50, 60 or 90 years here or earth, but I am going to live in Heaven for a eternity. So therefore I think I will spend what little time I have left here on earth, only God knows how long that may be to live for God. To try to overcome the daily temptations that come to me to pull me away from God, to ignore that unrighteous anger that rises up to my mind, to learn to control my unloving words before they come from my lips, to strive to pray for others daily even the ones who use me or have hurt me, to learn to control Stacey so that Jesus can work uncontrolled through my life. To let go and let GOD be LORD of my life. I can't control every second no matter how much the mom in me wants to try, I have to quit being delusional. I will have to learn to open my heart to others, and stop trying to put up walls in fear of getting hurt again. Love is pain, but it also something you don't want to miss out on or show to someone else.





You call me out upon the waters
The great unknown where feet may fail
And there I find You in the mystery
In oceans deep
My faith will stand


And I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise, my soul will rest in Your embrace
For I am Yours and You are mine

Your grace abounds in deepest waters
Your sovereign hand
Will be my guide
Where feet may fail and fear surrounds me

You've never failed and You won't start now
So I will call upon Your name
And keep my eyes above the waves
When oceans rise, my soul will rest in Your embrace

For I am Yours and You are mine
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior

Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters
Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior
Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders
Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever You would call me
Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander
And my faith will be made stronger
In the presence of my Savior


I will call upon Your name
Keep my eyes above the waves
My soul will rest in Your embrace
I am Yours and You are mine....


There are my ramblings for today. Nothing great, nothing poetic, just plain me. I would rather be with Jesus than this world. I would rather know Jesus' peace and love than this world's "love". I would rather have Jesus than anything.....now lets do this....


Until next time,

SJ.

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