The Story God Wrote For Me

Tonight, the name Jezebel came to my mind so I started looking up Bible verses about her. Then I ended up reading James and I & 2 Peter. Then the word spirit of divination came to my mind during prayer time. I couldn't really remember much but the one verse is in the Bible so I looked it up in Acts 16:16-18 ( As we were going to the place of prayer, we were met by a slave girl who had a spirit of divination and brought her owners much gain by fortune-telling. She followed Paul and us, crying out, “These men are servants of the Most High God, who proclaim to you the way of salvation.” And this she kept doing for many days. Paul, having become greatly annoyed, turned and said to the spirit, “I command you in the name of Jesus Christ to come out of her.” And it came out that very hour.) So this spirit literally put on a false pretense of knowing God all for a distraction. So I get my Bible again and it falls open to 1 Chronicles 10, the death of Saul. I started reading 1 Chronicle

Oh my sweet sweet Jesus. You never change, you are good and you love me! We have everything we need because we have Jesus! We do not need money, jobs or false identities to feel complete! We are complete in Jesus!!!!! HALLELUJAH my God, you are good all the time and all the time you are good! This is what I was made for, to be a warrior and fight for God's path for my life. So I wanted to encourage some of yall, get up off that ground, shake off the dust, there is LIFE off the ground, there is a fresh wind a blowing and it smells like a sweet fragrance of the Holy Spirit. The fresh anointing will start raining down on you and you shall not die but live and declare the works of the Lord. This isn't the end, this isn't the beginning, this is the path that God designed for you, and it is perfect in Him! He made you, he formed you, he holds you in his hands and in Him you are complete and loved. Identification in Christ is all you ever need, His blood is the stamp tha

This has truly been a year of change for me. I have willingly allowed myself to uncover suppressed past memories and deal with them. I have gone back to writing and I truly love to sing just completely alone, with nobody listening but God. I sing to speak life and encourage myself, I don't need others opinions of what to do, I don't want others words that don't mean anything to me, I need to sing for me and for what God has done and will do in my life. Life is so precious, m emories can haunt you, encourage you or propel you, but they will change you. Temporary fixes won't heal deep wounds. They need in-depth surgery to correct the main issue. Time doesn't heal, it just covers up the pain, but one word or memory can bring it back fresh and it hurts all over again with anger mixed in. It never heals until you deal with it. Praise God for being the Great Physician and our healer. Not just physically but emotionally and spiritually. He is the one I cling to, He is the

I am a hands on person, if there is a problem I run to help. But I physically cant go anywhere right now. Last night as I watched the weather heading towards my family and friends, talked to my mom on the phone and saw my friends asking for prayers, there was no way to be hands on physically. There was only one way to be hands on and that was through Jesus. As I was praying, the story of Jesus calming the storm came to me. He controls all storms of our lives. Either we can st ay in wordly security or we can fully trust Him and walk on the uncertainies of life while walking towards Him. Last night, I had to be a Peter and trust Him despite the dangers and fears surrounding my boat. I had to remember He loves them more than me and He will take care of them. Last night, I prayed God help my loved ones and HE did, HE protect them IN the storm. Storms come in our lives but when God is IN the storm with you, you will be ok. Trees are down, fences are down, shingles are gone but loved ones ar

99% of battery, first thing I think of is I need to go charge it. Why? Because my baby shark loving 2yr old will steal it and it will be empty by afternoon. Isn't 99% enough for now? Nope, I'm going to go charge it. It isnt fully charged at 99, not till it is completed at 100% is at its best and functional for later. 99 sheep, and the Shepherd leaves them to find the one missing sheep. 1 matters. 1 soul matters. 1 person matters to God, shouldn't they matter to us? Go be a li ght in this dark world and rejoice with all of Heaven when that 1 sinner repents. Go and share the gospel. This world is full of fear right now, share Jesus and show the world we can have joy and peace in the midst of our trials, because we have JESUS. Luke 15:4-10 ESV "What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he has lost one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the open country, and go after the one that is lost, until he finds it? [5] And when he has found it, he lays it on his s

Time still continues no matter what has stopped your world. God is still on the throne today, the virus doesn't change that. Do you trust him only in the good times or do you trust Him in the bad? Just like marriage vows, if you are a Christian you should be committed to serving God in the better or the worse, and till death do you part and you see Him face to face. Maybe it is time for some of us to hit our knees and refresh our relationship with our King and get to know our  first love all over again. Stop looking for others, drugs, alcohol, sex, porn and pride to fill something inside you that they can never fill. People will hurt you and knock you down but thank God I know a man who loved me so much He had nails put through his skin, ligaments, tendons, bones and blood vessels for me! He took beatings for my sins, He bled for me, then He died for me. Who else deserves my undivided love and attention? Only My Jesus. I, ____, need you, JESUS, to be the Lord of my life, to hav

ts so hard to decide on needs vs wants. The inner fat kid says this is essential but since I'm trying to get well and back healthy I probably shouldn't. The struggle is real, will I buy it and be temporarily happy or stand strong and be better off? Spiritually: Your sinful self aka the worldly man fights your spiritual man. Who wins? The one you feed the most. Feed your spiritual man with the word of God, pray and stand in God's will for your life. Sin will sneak in with just a thought, if you entertain the thought who are you feeding? Sins temptation is subtle at first then it evolves. Sin is a temporary happiness that then resuls into anger, bitterness and despair. Don't give up, resist temptation and it will flee. Setup boundaries and guard your temple of God. Dont entertain temptation but restrain it.

Coronavirus, to most it would offer a fearful emotion but for me, it causes feelings of relief and expectancy. You see to some this is detrimental to their very way of life and to some this calm time is what we have been praying for. Death of friends, family members or people, no we didn't pray for that. I of all people know the cruel sting of death, it hurts and scars you deep, life is never the same after such despair. I prayed for change and revival. I prayed that America would wake up and fall to their knees. After the Governor of New York lit up the World Trade Center tower pink, I knew then things were going to change. You can't celebrate killing children and expect God to pat you on the back and say that it is ok. You can't turn your back from God, deplete yourself of moral values and think He is going to shine on your worst day, when you blocked the sun out yourself. God is a jealous God. America, we have setup idols just like the Israelites. For the ones that don&#

Physically: Those worldly essentials won't help you. You will die one day or today. But where you go does matter. You arent in control of others or your life. Spiritually: It is essential you know God. Life is short, you can't physically take anything with you. Spiritually when you die, you have Jesus, if you believe in Him and repent of your sins. Or if you think I'm crazy and Jesus isnt real then, you are going to Hell with the Devil. That's truth, and that is essential. You cant buy your way out of eternity except through Jesus' blood.

My basketball is deflated, it's useless right now. I didnt use it like I should and it showed. So I got my handy dandy air inflator and it was good as new. Spiritually; During quarantine, seek God, study, learn to pray, learn to worship by yourself, learn to preach to yourself, learn to listen to God. Reinflate your spiritual life with the sweet presence of God. If you always rely on other people to keep you "spiritually full" when you get alone one day you will be useless. T ake this time to find the real true meaning to discover what being a child of God is all about today. And when this is over we will see a different church, one that our country needs. Pray, Study, Learn, Meditate, and Live out the Word of God.

8 cold donuts in fridge. Me: I'm going to heat them in oven. Kids: no we like them cold. Me: Thats cause you have never had them hot. Spiritually: are you a hot Christian about to be used or a cold Christians hiding in fridge? Use this time to learn, grow and listen to what God tells you to do. Are you faithful or Full of FAITH? Are you hopeful? or FULL of HOPE? Are you REDEEMED or redeeMEd? Seek Jesus, live in Him and love Him with all your heart, soul, mind. Cold or Hot? We all know when that hot sign is on and we flock to it. Be the type of Christian that God is in and people see the consuming fire of God in your life.

Watching Pilgrims Progress with the kids this am. The demons were chasing Christian and a guy started fighting them off while Christian ran down the straight path. Me: Kids this is why you pray to Jesus, and have Christian friends who will pray with and for you. Did you see how those demons were defeated?

Kai: Mom you brought me to this hot fun place now. I'm going to lay down and die. Me: Oh Israel, how you forget Kai: who is Israel? Me: We are son. We forgot what all God has done for us. We turn to men for praise and deny God the praise He deserves. We have Bibles but we dont read them like we should. We have access to a King and we dont even bother to talk more than 30 seconds or when trouble comes our way. We have placed things in greater value than God. We have turned bac k to ignorant idolatry. We tear down our brothers and sisters in Christ while Satan laughs at us. He has lied and manipulated us to destroy us with fear and chaos. Israel is our current state. Kai: sounds like they need to get saved. Me: Oh Lord, revive America, help us reach out to you for a permanent solution and not wordly patches. Help us turn our hearts and minds back to you and off our own lives. Help us be the man and women of God we are called to be and rise as victors and stop allowing the devil to lo

Elia: I want a donut. Me: No Elia: I want baby shark. Me: No phone, go color your schoolwork Elia: I'm baby hulk, i smash you Me: I'm mama hulk and I'll said no. Elia: mad and refusing to move for 30 minutes now.... *metaphorically* Me: I want to go to Africa God: Not now Me: I want to be used God: Grow you aren't ready Me: Where are the mentors to help? God: They gave up, are you going to give up too? Me: Why are my friends falling away? God: They chose the world over me, pray for them Me: God what do you want me to do next? God: I've told you, study, read, learn, grow, love the ones you are hurting and pray for them. Be a disciple not a performer. Me: God I messed up bad today. My temper got the best of me, and the thoughts in my mind weren't honoring you. God: Confess your sins, I gave you a new day to start over again. Coronavirus = refresh your mind, redirect your focus and restart your life. Bring honor to Him and Him alone.

Fear is a liar, God is still God despite what's going on. In your brokenness, you can keep on going your way or you can turn towards the One calling your name. Run to Him, be safe, no more running wondering when will it get better. Cause it is better walking with Jesus. He is the one you have been searching for, and He won't leave you alone. Fall at His feet and worship Him. Cause sometimes you gotta worship Him alone and listen to what He tells you. Life is scary but I know the ONE who holds the answers I seek. Reach out He is there. Praise Him!

So many times, people say I can't believe Peter and the disciples betrayed Jesus. I wouldn't be like the Israelites and backslide. Yet here today, you traded in trust for God into fear generated by the enemy. You live in fear, holding onto your own devices while denying and trusting in God. We are just like the disciples and Israelites and its time people of God we proclaim Who God is and Trust in His provision. We are being shifted right now, many are being led away and some  will be kept. My God it breaks my heart to see this brokenness. Stop elevating people who claim they know more than God and walk on these troubled waters towards our Savior. Toilet paper, water, food, your house, your job, your car, Nothing is guaranteed!!!!! What is guaranteed, is that Jesus died for your sins on the cross, rose from the dead 3 days later and you can have a relationship with Him if you confess your sins and believe in Him. You can stop living in fear and live in reassurance of His love a

Our lil family has had 13 Sundays of leading P&W and preaching at our lil campground. Some Sundays we had 2 people besides us and last Sunday we had 15. God has grown us alot. Mike had to step up to preach and I had to learn how to sing and play the piano. Mike let me preach last Sunday. I preached on Egypt, are you ready to stay in bondage or are you ready to cross over the unknown seas to Canaan aka freedom. We had a couple that have came every Sunday for the past 4 weeks a nd today they brought us this note before they head home. You see this coronavirus has shut down all State campgrounds and everybody is leaving. The KOA did staff cut backs and isnt accepting any tent or long term campers right now. We may be looking for a new place very soon. In less than a week, to everyone else our complete ministry is shut down. But Mike and I aren't normal, tomorrow we will still have Sunday church, not in the pavilion but on our lil concrete slab by the camper. Sunday church isnt can

Coronavirus = fear and panic throughout world Dont yall know, It's just another died for, its paid for checkmark, covered by Jesus' blood? He died for all our diseases, new or old!! He already paid for it and has it covered. Stop living in fear!!! The world has that handled. Be the different!!! His blood is what saved us from ALL!! We are suppose to be different from the world, stop living in fear. Rise up, show the world Jesus in this storm. Pray for the world. Pray for lost loved ones and your best friends. Pray for people to see Jesus in the middle of this chaos. Come on yall: pray, read, share and praise Him!!! God is good no matter what is going on around us!!!!! Isaiah 53:4-7 KJV Surely he hath borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows: yet we did esteem him stricken, smitten of God, and afflicted. [5] But he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities: the chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with his stripes we are healed. [6]

Yesterday I woke up to another bag of groceries on my camper step. People are leaving and they gave me their food. You can NOT out give God!!! So I went out to see who needed what. Come on peeps, hoard for yourself or Give for His Glory alone. Be the different, shine for Jesus and be the church out there, not just in words but in action!!!! Tomorrow is a new day, I'm thankful when my feet hit the floor, I have Jesus. I'm not alone, I have a good good Father who has my back and loves me so much He sent His son to die for me. Tomorrow you can live in fear with Satan or you can live in peace with Jesus. 2 options, 2 different places but both are for eternity. Only through Jesus can you enter Heaven. Lost sheep come home. Luke 15:4-7 ESV "What man of you, having a hundred sheep, if he has lost one of them, does not leave the ninety-nine in the open country, and go after the one that is lost, until he finds it? [5] And when he has found it, he lays it on his shoulders

I feel pressed and running out of time. God spoke to me, dont settle for Ishmael. In Crisis, trust God or you will settle for a fake imitation of God's promises to you.

In every crisis, people are looking for hope. Show them Jesus, not just in our words but in our actions. Fear causes bondage to yourself and others. Be free of fear, have faith and trust in the God. Sunday, we had church service as scheduled. 7pm, a man came by our site, He needed bread for him and his kids because the grocery stores were out. So we gave him bread and some paper towels. Another man needed eggs so I gave him 6 of mine. A few minutes later, a man came with a b ag and said the lady from church today wanted you to have these. Cookies  :) Yesterday am, I went around asking all the workers if they needed anything. The guy that had a stroke about 2 months ago asked for Lysol spray. I couldn't find any at the store so I gave him one of my two cans when I got back. Last night, a lady said I'm leaving early and have tons of groceries can you please take them. Yes maam I will and if anyone needs anything I will share it. My fridge is full now. God has already

Jesus, help us. Yall are being ridiculous. I have seen people being ugly to each other over butt wiping paper. Come on, humans are still humans, despite the circumstances. Learn some dignity and respect. We are ALL going to die of something and that toilet paper isn't going to save you from it. Yoy can buy up all the supplies in the world and die in a car wreck on the way home from the store. Go overseas, see babies starving from lack of milk, people sick with malaria and  no money for medicine, a little girl dead in the back of the truck you are riding in because the closest hospital is far away, iv lines being held up by broom sticks, and people drawing water out of wells. America, all while all of us take 20 min hot showers, have electricity at a flick of a switch, access to health care and medications and transportation. People overseas washing their hands in dirty lakes and rivers, while you have running water and soap but spend hundreds on better stuff. Spending hundreds on t

Day 1: Last night, I snuck out of my metal enclosure and ventured out into the darkness. I loaded my white transportation module and searched for the only thing that will help control the outbreak of fecal material smells and fecal material located in my metal enclosure. In a dashing move, I snuck into a compound and picked up my faithful sidekick Antoinette and told her of our mission. We left out into the darkness, our fuel low and traveled by granite to the location. The l ocation was swarming with other night riders, all looking for supplies. We managed to blend in with our hurried pace and pretending to talk on our electronic earring device. Upon arrival at the narrowed lane filled with members wearing their blue coverings we discovered there was limited stock. Claiming what we could, we went and proceeded to search for wet clothes and strange pants that infants wear only to find out these also were limited. Alas our venture proved too much for my patience level and

Our identity isn't in outward appearances. Picture #1 shows a Greater Kudu and so does Pic #2. But there is a difference, Pic #1 has an outward difference, introducing my kudu named Elliot. Is "Elliot" any less of a Greater Kudu than "Ian" in Pic #2. Nope, pic #1 and pic #2 still show a Greater Kudu. Pic #1 just shows a Greater Kudu that doesn't back down from a fight, and his one horn doesn't change what He is. Spiritually stop letting people, clothes, jobs, your weight, cars, your family name or anything else define you. If you are a Christian, your identity is in Christ alone. Why are you letting temporary "identities" matter more than your eternal identity? We all have a purpose and a mission, some of us may be worn out and different looking but it doesn't define us, we are still sons and daughters of God at the end of this day.

I miss the country, having a yard and being able to chainsaw limbs and burn trees. It's a way I de-stress.I see the potential of stuff not the current state and I like to see results but sometimes you dont get to. So lately to relax, I drive through the animal park, playing my praise and worship music and the kids have to find every animal on the map and count them, hey its math and science extra credit. So yesterday I'm riding and see this guy with the bullseye and it stood  out from the other animals, and then I started thinking.... Spiritually do you feel like you have a bullseye on your back? If so be encouraged, you are considered a threat! You are on the right path, the enemy is watching and will try to take you out but keep going! If you turn around, guess what, no bullseye, you aren't going anywhere, you aren't a threat to the devil, and you need to hit your knees and pray and get back to where God wants you to go. Don't be defeated when you are spirit

Yesterday was a serious spiritual battle all day for multiple reasons. One of those things was my Bible with all my notes and prepared sermon got left at church service #1 and I failed to realize it until after church service #2 and when we were on the way to preach said lost sermon for class. I can't stand electronic stuff, I wanted my twice rebounded Bible with all my highlights and notes from ever struggle in the last couple of years and I worked on the sermon carefully. T hankfully my Bible had been found but was lock in a storage closet unavailable to me. Not going to lie, I was upset at a certain someone for leaving it and said person said "Just be led by the Spirit" and I replied "Easy for you to say Mr. Ipad". Yeah not great moment for me and showed my super lack of trusting in God's provision. I remembered something in that Ahhhh! time. Dear Bishop Ogutu once told me a story of a time when He went to preach and the wind blew His notes away and the

I did this Bible study a few years ago, it was a journey through the past, real transparent words filled with anger, resentment, hurt and pain. I never wanted anyone to read my words because they were raw and I had to heal from the inside out. I had to heal in forgiveness for myself, others and guess what. Even if the other people never said they were sorry, I have to forgive them. Ever carried around bitterness, guilt, anger, resent or hurt? It will weigh you down and destro y you. You cant harbour unforgiveness, the Bible is very clear on it. Matthew 6:14-15 KJV For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: [15] But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses. Forgiveness wasn't anything we as sinners deserved it is by God's grace, mercy and Jesus dying on the cross for our sins that we can be forgiven. Unforgiveness will destroy your book before you even finish the chapter. Don't

We need some stuff for the church service at KOA. So off I went to a store, I was looking at the prices, and my internet brain was like this is overpriced. I can get this stuff in 2 days for half the price. This company is overpricing because they know we, people, aren't patient and are willing to pay out of convenience. Spiritually are you operating in faith and waiting for what God has for you or are you rushing into something not for you and paying a big price? Eve went to  that overpriced tree and we all went bankrupt until Jesus paid the price for our sins. Don't push towards convenience that will cost you, wait and go towards the right time, right place and right path that Jesus has already made for you.

I lock the door every night, but it doesnt really help if you leave the keys in the door does it?  # tiredmommoment Who holds the keys to your "home", body or life? Don't think you are "safe" only to fall victim to letting the enemy have the keys to destroy you. Is the enemy behind enemy lines because you allowed him a foothold in your life? SHUT him out before its too late. Pray, stay humble, repent of your sins and seek God. Put on the whole armour of God daily. Stand against the wiles of the devil, dont open your life up to him. Mark 3:23-27 KJV And he called them unto him, and said unto them in parables, How can Satan cast out Satan? [24] And if a kingdom be divided against itself, that kingdom cannot stand. [25] And if a house be divided against itself, that house cannot stand. [26] And if Satan rise up against himself, and be divided, he cannot stand, but hath an end. [27] No man can enter into a strong man's house, and spoil his goods, excep

I'm training for a 5k this am. I've got Skillet, and I took Thrive Sculpt and I gave it the best I could on the treadmill. The results say I gave more than 100%, not possible at all. FALSE you cant do more than 100%. It leads to failure and false imitiations. I've heard of my Red Level family. I'm broken and I'm mad. All around this world there are false expectations of perfection. Heck even on this gym wall there is the word perfection on the same wall as power and achievem ent. PERFECTION is unobtainable!!!! Every single one of us makes mistakes, we try to hide out of embarrassment because other people are trying to act perfect too. EVERYBODY sins!!! It is by God's grace that we are forgiven but that still doesnt make us perfect!!! We wont be perfect until we make it to heaven and thats only through Jesus dying on the cross for us not anything we have done!!! If we the people were transparent about our mistakes and showed how if it wasn't for God tha

We went on another adventure last week. I love homeschool trips. While walking I saw this tree and sign. Warning: Poisonous fruits. The fruit looked pretty and normal but obviously it was dangerous. So away I went with the 4 kids very close by and we went to explore somewhere safer. If Adam and Eve had a sign like that would they have fallen? Yes, because if you dont follow God's voice, you will follow Satan. The warning by God was there, eat of any tree but which one? Yeah  the tree of good and evil. They had a great life, walking around naked, eating free food, fresh water, naming animals and basking in the perfect temperature sun. Sounds glorious right? But that ole sneaky devil came in and tempted Eve and then she got Adam to sin. Their perfect life was ruined for disobeying their creator and sinning against Him. Have you ever noticed that right about the time someone gets what they always wanted that they sin? Not just a little sin but a boom shackalaka BIG one. Kinda ca