I am at the end of what I can do, what do I do now?

Catchy title, huh? I had to lure you in somehow, right? Haha just kidding but seriously. What do you do when you are at the end of your rope so to speak? Do you keep holding on to the end of that rope, do you let go and fall into depression, do you cut it and become filled with anger and bitterness holding on to the small pieces left in your hands, or do you hold on and fight? Me, personally I have done all of the above. Looking back at what I use to do and holding on to the past with anger and bitterness at where I was in the present, so exhausted that you just give up and let go of that rope, holding on and attempting to keep your head above life and feeling every day that you can't go on, and the stubborn Stacey that says Not today, Devil get thee behind me, and you start fighting to climb up. Yes, I think we all can say we have been through one of these stages. So what brought this post to pass? Well, I am eagerly seeking for more from my precious Savior. I am looking for more than the every day ritual of Stacey and looking for the deeper, more intimate relationship with Jesus. I am looking for every aspect of my life for him to use me. Use me, despite what it does to me, despite the cost, despite the friends I may lose in the process, despite the talking and people saying I am crazy, despite living for other's all and serve HIM with my ALL. The one who matters, the one formed me in my mother's belly, the one who allows me to wake up in the am, the one who loves me more than anyone else, the one who knows my every need, the one who saves me when I am falling into the deep dark. And all I have to do is cry ABBA, help me, I need you! The one who my heart lives for, my best friend, my Father, my guide in this dark world, my comfort when the tears fall down when nobody else is around, the one who gently says No my child, not that life, not that way, NO NO NO. But then loves me so much he lets me chase my own desires all while it breaks his heart. The one who when I say Jesus forgive me, and allows me to humbly and repentively (is that a word) go right back when I left him, picking me up and showing me the way back. My Father, who I love. Jesus is my ALL. The one who died for me, when nobody else even knew me. My Savior. Oh how I love you!

Praise and Prayer, that is what gets you through the dark times. Because you pray to the one who listens, and hears you. You praise Him for who he is, and not who you are. You praise Him for he created and formed you, comforts, guides, leads, loves, shapes, holds and loving prepared your future. The wonderful name of Jesus, my King, My God.

Let us praise Him for who He is to us! And not who He is to others. He is my ALL, what will cause me to fall away? JESUS, you are my everything! Do you praise Him when others are watching or do you praise Him when it is just you? Show Him how much you love Him in your own place and not how much you like to exalt in public.