Waiting Again

I have so many thoughts and feelings running through my mind right now. Do you know when you search and search to find your place in life? You never really fit in anywhere and then one day you find that place and you long to stay there? My place is Africa. I felt like I fit there. I felt like I belonged there. I felt accepted there. I went and did exactly what God told me, Niger - 9 months - June 17th - Alone.... it was heaven to know that is where I was suppose to be because I was walking in HIS will for my life and not my own. It is such a comfort and peaceful to know exactly what God has for you and to fulfill that calling he has on your life. Now I am waiting. Waiting on the one who called me to send me and my family full time. Waiting as patiently as I can. I think of the children, I think of their sweet smiles, I think of their sick eyes looking and pleading at me as if to say help me....and as I lay my hands on them to try to physically help them...in my heart I am praying with all my might for God to heal them physically and spiritually. I think of the women sitting by the mats and listening to the children's stories, I see their smiles as we greet them. I see the children running towards our vehicle with such excitement and happiness. I see people with no electricity, no water, no air conditioner, no heaters, barely any clothes on their body but I see their genuine smiles. I see people who are starving but offering what little food they have to me. I see the bad too but mostly I remember how I felt at that time in my life. I would do it all over again in a heartbeat. I am so longing to go with Mike and our sweet girls. Everyone says why don't you stay in the US and help? Why would you take your children to Africa? God didn't call me to stay in the US - he called me to go. If God tells me and Mike to go that is what we are going to do and that is the BEST thing for my children is to have two parents who listen to what God tells them to do. If I am in God's will then I have peace knowing that whatever happens it will be HIS WILL and not my own. I have peace and comfort that he will protect, lead and guide us to where we need to be. I have FAITH in HIM. I BELIEVE IN THE ONE WHO SAVED ME FROM MY SINS. I BELIEVE IN JESUS CHRIST.

Mark 6:1-13

6 And he went out from thence, and came into his own country; and his disciples follow him.

2 And when the sabbath day was come, he began to teach in the synagogue: and many hearing him were astonished, saying, From whence hath this man these things? and what wisdom is this which is given unto him, that even such mighty works are wrought by his hands?

3 Is not this the carpenter, the son of Mary, the brother of James, and Joses, and of Juda, and Simon? and are not his sisters here with us? And they were offended at him.

4 But Jesus, said unto them, A prophet is not without honour, but in his own country, and among his own kin, and in his own house.

5 And he could there do no mighty work, save that he laid his hands upon a few sick folk, and healed them.

6 And he marvelled because of their unbelief. And he went round about the villages, teaching.

7 And he called unto him the twelve, and began to send them forth by two and two; and gave them power over unclean spirits;

8 And commanded them that they should take nothing for their journey, save a staff only; no scrip, no bread, no money in their purse:

9 But be shod with sandals; and not put on two coats.

10 And he said unto them, In what place soever ye enter into an house, there abide till ye depart from that place.

11 And whosoever shall not receive you, nor hear you, when ye depart thence, shake off the dust under your feet for a testimony against them. Verily I say unto you, It shall be more tolerable for Sodom and Gomorrha in the day of judgment, than for that city.

12 And they went out, and preached that men should repent.

13 And they cast out many devils, and anointed with oil many that were sick, and healed them.