The Story God Wrote For Me

Warning: These are the real emotions I felt. I am not holding anything back, why? So you can see and try to understand what I am trying to show through this.....reaching deep within myself, and opening up in hopes that someone somewhere will read this and realize they are not alone. Sometimes in life, things happen completely by surprise and it is devastating. Your whole world no longer matters, your insides are just cold and you just don't know what to do. You wanted to ask why and how but you can't, because there is no one to answer. You get angry at God. God, why? How could you take him? Why why why? I trusted you to protect Him, how could you do this? Why would you do this to my family? God why why why? I don't understand and it hurts so bad. Each moment throughout the day, you just feel like you are in a daze. Maybe it is a dream and you will wake up from it. The next morning comes and you realize no this did happen. The coldness in your body makes you realize it ...

This past week I have been going through alot of trials. I have had to keep my mouth shut, get on my face and pray, trust and believe. A couple of weeks ago I prayed God please draw me close to you, please put a desire in me to get back in your word daily and trust you. And here I am. But the best things about a trial is how you come to the place where you have to say God I can not do anything without you, and I can not fix this, so here is it I give it to you. Help me, Save Me, and Heal Me. And the peace that comes from giving your problems to Jesus is awesome. However, the fleshly side still sees no way out, has a couple of anxious moments. You have to stop and remind yourself. Jesus has this now it isn't yours. Trust God through everything. You can not fix anything. He made everything and rules over everything therefore he can fix everything. Sometimes not to your liking but we are merely servants. Our Father knows what is best in our lives. Does a servant tell a King what to do...

My baby girl has been having problems with sleeping for awhile now. She is restless all night long, flops around and jerks in her sleep which causes her to wake up crying multiple times throughout the night. We just switched to a new pediatrician two weeks ago (after everything we went through with Kai). I told the new pediatrician about this and they immediately referred me to a pediatric neurologist in Birmingham. This past summer I noticed that Elo favors one side more than the other and she runs kinda funny (on her toes and kinda teeters). I mentioned this to their previous dr but was told that it was tibial torsion and she would grow out of it. Anyways, today as I am telling the neurologist she asks if she can take Elo out to the hall and proceeds to throw a ball down the hall multiple times and tries to get her to throw it back. Elo is running up and down the hall and just giggling and have a blast. Then the dr. does some reflex tests on her and tries to get her to use her left h...

June 6, 2014 - The beginning of my day... Stacey Frank Africa Missions wrote on June 6: What a day...it is amazing what you think of to do when you realize this is the last business day you have before you go have your BABY BOY yeah!! Home bills paid; Business bills paid, checkbooks balanced, business checks wrote out, business receipts filed, emergency consent forms and insurance cards packed, bags packed in van, car seat cleaned and ready to go in van, office organized, insurance paid, house somewhat cleaned, medical appointments re-scheduled for Monday, girls bags packed, and now I am off to take a nap before starting again.....3 days 18 hours and 50 minutes till I kiss my sweet boy's face..... The Rest of the Day: After nap time was over, the girls and I went outside and played hard, I cut the grass and weedeated (is that a real word?) the front yard, mom came over with her two dogs and we sat and talked, I attempted to drive the lawn mower across the spill way to get it into...

I thought I would share my yesterday......       The past 4 nights both girls have been waking up at all hours of the night, crying and screaming and about the time I get one to sleep the other wakes up. The only thing I can figure out is that we all have a head cold and maybe they keep waking up miserable with it. They also went from sleeping 2 hours during the day to only sleeping maybe 45 min - 1 hr.  Needless to say yesterday after only sleeping 4 hours all night it wasn't looking to be the best day already. I had a Dr. a ppointment  at 8 AM (didn't get back to sleep till 6:30 and had to get up at 7am) to check my progress. After that I went to McDonald's. I was in the drive thru when I saw this lady with the "look" make eye contact with me and she started walking toward my van. I (without thinking about it) shook my head No, stopped eye contact and locked the van doors. In Niger some of the beggars, or children will come to your window and beg for...

November 12, 2013 I have some confessions to make. After many weeks of being angry and confused about things or places I was at in my life - I can finally admit my anger and I ask for forgiveness for the ones I pushed away in my angry state. My life is not where I want it to be…specifically I don’t want the American dream. I don’t care about a house, car or rich worldly things. I only care for me and my family to go serve the Lord whole heartedly with nothing holding us back. I am not fearful of the unknown in Africa with my children. I know many missionaries that have children in Africa and they do what parents in the USA do every day. Pray for their children. Pray for their safety. Pray they will grow up to love the Lord. We trust God with our children. We trust God we make the best decisions for our children. We trust God to lead us daily where he would have us to go. Mike and I are both confused right now about why we are where we are in our lives BUT we are trusting in God a...

I have so many thoughts and feelings running through my mind right now. Do you know when you search and search to find your place in life? You never really fit in anywhere and then one day you find that place and you long to stay there? My place is Africa. I felt like I fit there. I felt like I belonged there. I felt accepted there. I went and did exactly what God told me, Niger - 9 months - June 17th - Alone.... it was heaven to know that is where I was suppose to be because I was walking in HIS will for my life and not my own. It is such a comfort and peaceful to know exactly what God has for you and to fulfill that calling he has on your life. Now I am waiting. Waiting on the one who called me to send me and my family full time. Waiting as patiently as I can. I think of the children, I think of their sweet smiles, I think of their sick eyes looking and pleading at me as if to say help me....and as I lay my hands on them to try to physically help them...in my heart I am praying with ...