The Story God Wrote For Me

I thought I would share my yesterday......       The past 4 nights both girls have been waking up at all hours of the night, crying and screaming and about the time I get one to sleep the other wakes up. The only thing I can figure out is that we all have a head cold and maybe they keep waking up miserable with it. They also went from sleeping 2 hours during the day to only sleeping maybe 45 min - 1 hr.  Needless to say yesterday after only sleeping 4 hours all night it wasn't looking to be the best day already. I had a Dr. a ppointment  at 8 AM (didn't get back to sleep till 6:30 and had to get up at 7am) to check my progress. After that I went to McDonald's. I was in the drive thru when I saw this lady with the "look" make eye contact with me and she started walking toward my van. I (without thinking about it) shook my head No, stopped eye contact and locked the van doors. In Niger some of the beggars, or children will come to your window and beg for...

November 12, 2013 I have some confessions to make. After many weeks of being angry and confused about things or places I was at in my life - I can finally admit my anger and I ask for forgiveness for the ones I pushed away in my angry state. My life is not where I want it to be…specifically I don’t want the American dream. I don’t care about a house, car or rich worldly things. I only care for me and my family to go serve the Lord whole heartedly with nothing holding us back. I am not fearful of the unknown in Africa with my children. I know many missionaries that have children in Africa and they do what parents in the USA do every day. Pray for their children. Pray for their safety. Pray they will grow up to love the Lord. We trust God with our children. We trust God we make the best decisions for our children. We trust God to lead us daily where he would have us to go. Mike and I are both confused right now about why we are where we are in our lives BUT we are trusting in God a...

I have so many thoughts and feelings running through my mind right now. Do you know when you search and search to find your place in life? You never really fit in anywhere and then one day you find that place and you long to stay there? My place is Africa. I felt like I fit there. I felt like I belonged there. I felt accepted there. I went and did exactly what God told me, Niger - 9 months - June 17th - Alone.... it was heaven to know that is where I was suppose to be because I was walking in HIS will for my life and not my own. It is such a comfort and peaceful to know exactly what God has for you and to fulfill that calling he has on your life. Now I am waiting. Waiting on the one who called me to send me and my family full time. Waiting as patiently as I can. I think of the children, I think of their sweet smiles, I think of their sick eyes looking and pleading at me as if to say help me....and as I lay my hands on them to try to physically help them...in my heart I am praying with ...

It has been awhile since I have written a blog. The girls are doing very well. As of today they weighed 14pds 1 oz and 14pds 2 oz. Thank you for all your prayers for my sweet angels. I pray they live out the great commission. I pray they serve God with their whole heart. I pray they listen to God's will for their lives and find their callings. Secretly I hope they are missionaries to the weak, to the poor, to the lost. I had two children + Luke 10:1 = Missionaries..... Now what has been going on with me.......My husband went for the second time to Africa without me. I prayed and prayed and God said "No".....I kept praying and God said "stop asking". My heart's desire is to serve God full time in Africa with the girls and my husband so why am I here and Mike is there? I bet he asked the same exact question when I went for 9 months. I don't know why....I am trusting and waiting on him although it is so so hard right now. I am so very glad that Mike is ab...

April 4, 2013 Wow alot has changed since my last blog. My precious little angels were born March 7, 2013. The story of their birth is my new testimony. But first I would like to thank all the labor and delivery nurses and doctors at University of South Alabama in Mobile, Dr. David Lewis from the high risk clinic in Mobile, and for the labor and delivery nurses at ARH. But lets go backwards for a minute........ February 25, 2013 - After a whole weekend of cramping and not feeling just right I met Mike at the door. He had been working out of town all weekend. We started counting contractions and then decided to go to the local hospital. On arrival, we found out I was having real contractions and had just started to dilate. We had some great nurses who worked fast and were able to stop my labor by giving me three shots of brethine. Mike and I got to go home after the last shot seemed to slow down my contractions. I kept cramping throughout the next few days so I started final...

Sometimes God throws us a curve ball in our daily walk with him and it makes us go...wow where did that come from? I just gave up on that "dream" not two months earlier and now after 10 years of marriage it is going to happen when I gave up? Yes, that happened to me this past summer. After 10 years of marriage to my bestest best friend I had all but given up on the thought of having children. Why? Because I turned the big 30 in July and I decided I would just go back to general surgeon school and work in Africa as a surgeon one day and thought that was the path God was going to open up for me. 9 days after my birthday I get the "OMG" moment when the pregnancy stick turned immediately pregnant...Now after 10 years I have taken many many tests and I had never had one that showed pregnant. So of course, I think it is a fluke...2 additional pregnancy test that had the "pregnant -spelled out for dummies" later and lots of shock and then the realization of i...

5 days and I will be back where I feel like I belong :) I'm returning to Niger again! I'm so excited!